||[Aug. 17th, 2005|10:18 pm]
|||||Memory Lane - H2O||]|
Jesus...Sometimes I amaze myself.
Tonight is a strang one.
I'm so love sick. It feels like Someone gave me roses, But they have long since died and been thrown onto my bed to rot. So Every night when i crawl into bed into the pile of dead red roses, now black. Im left to think, All the while lying in this bed of black roses Being stabbed by their thorns. But then every mourning, the pain leaves for the day. Only to return when I go to bed at night.
Sorry, I complian a lot.
Enter the STRANGE part of tonight.
At the same time I have never been happier with my life then I am RIGHT now.
Im so happy with my friendship situation. I have a ton of friends that have just recently entered my life that I really like spending time with. My friends as of late have made me feel so much better about myself. They make me feel funny and wanted. Its awesome.
You gotta understand...Growing up I had ONE good friend, I only went over to his house and he was the only kid outside of my family that I hung out with. So now, entering my Senior year and having a lot of people that seem to care enough about me to ask me to join them, even WANT me to join them. Is really cool to me. Seriously..Threw out Middle school even I only had A small group of friends. I never see most of them anymore, you know...
Whats funny is the reason I dont see some of them can be lead down to somthing Like...Music
As we grew up, Everyone started listening to different Music. I Dig punk rock, He digs Rap, She digs Country. you know...that kinda stuff.
I go to punk shows, meet other punks. He goes to rap shows, meets the other rap kids.
The times...they are-a changin
Also, I can now admit that I drink and smoke pot. To myself. Understand..?
I dont drink or smoke because I NEED to. But because I WANT too. Get a little extra out of the weekends you know? But I can also have a great time sober. Im not always looking for my next "fix" or anything like that.
This summer has been so much more than perfect. Im sad too see it end in a couple weeks.
Ive done a lot of growing up latly. How about you?
I love you. I really do.
Friends, call me. 612-801-2535. We really should get toghter as much as we can. Tommarow Is never a given. But it always comes a day too soon.